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My website has been down for two days due to miscommunication. ugh. i broke up with my best friend tonight. oh, well, it was a long time coming.. the girls are doing well in their writing class. k17 is writing a paper on condoleezza rice; dd 14 is doing a paper on the mormons. r and i are starting the south beach diet come monday. wish us well. i am now officially off of risperdal. yippee. today was my last day with my ocd therapist. she asked me how i will know if i need to see someone again. i said if i was suicidal. she said i shouldn't wait until then. so far the only ocd behaviors i have are avoiding cracks and horizontal shadows, checking my phone every 5 minutes and listening to my voice mails every couple of hours. right now i am watching elton john on larry king. he is talking about his "husband" david. he said he does not consider it a marriage, just a sense of security and commitment. while i do not agree with it, i do have a couple of gay friends and i would not trade them for the world. i think that life is too short to judge people. god is our judge. i would like prayer for a 14 yr old girl ebelin's family. she died of esphixiation. her younger brother found her dead.


I have a memory of when i was aboug 5 years old. a whole bunch of kids came into our back yard and swung on our laundry lines. my parents did not believe me that it happened, but i remember it as clear as yesterday. i also remember roller skating in our garage to beatles and beach boy music, you know, the skates with a key? around and around the garage i would skate. i thought i was so cool.

one day a friend and i went to our elementary school down the street and climbed a small tree that led to the roof of the school. we ran around on the roof of the school. boy, woud my dad have tanned me alive if he knew that i d been ruuning around on the roof.

when we moved to a new house, i rode my bike to a "haunted house" that i was told was used by drug dealers. i went inside, but was afraid of snakes, so i left.

those were the days when we could leave the house or hours; our parents did not know where we were. i was a good kid, so i pretty much stayed out of trouble.

i did some stuff that my parents would not be proud of, but i was pretty much a good kid, got deent grades, and stayed out of the principal's office. my kids are great kids. they do their school work no questions asked. they have high moral values. i trust that my kids will make good choices in their lives. they want to be successful. they work hard, even when they are tired. i do't think that my kids would ever turn to drugs/alchohol. they have lots of good friends and work hard for good grades. k17 is working hard at her job and seems to enjoy working. she is saving lots of money for a car someday. she is anexexcellent emplyoyee, i am sure. you can't say that about a lot of kids.