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My website has been down for two days due to miscommunication. ugh. i broke up with my best friend tonight. oh, well, it was a long time coming.. the girls are doing well in their writing class. k17 is writing a paper on condoleezza rice; dd 14 is doing a paper on the mormons. r and i are starting the south beach diet come monday. wish us well. i am now officially off of risperdal. yippee. today was my last day with my ocd therapist. she asked me how i will know if i need to see someone again. i said if i was suicidal. she said i shouldn't wait until then. so far the only ocd behaviors i have are avoiding cracks and horizontal shadows, checking my phone every 5 minutes and listening to my voice mails every couple of hours. right now i am watching elton john on larry king. he is talking about his "husband" david. he said he does not consider it a marriage, just a sense of security and commitment. while i do not agree with it, i do have a couple of gay friends and i would not trade them for the world. i think that life is too short to judge people. god is our judge. i would like prayer for a 14 yr old girl ebelin's family. she died of esphixiation. her younger brother found her dead.


I have a memory of when i was aboug 5 years old. a whole bunch of kids came into our back yard and swung on our laundry lines. my parents did not believe me that it happened, but i remember it as clear as yesterday. i also remember roller skating in our garage to beatles and beach boy music, you know, the skates with a key? around and around the garage i would skate. i thought i was so cool.

one day a friend and i went to our elementary school down the street and climbed a small tree that led to the roof of the school. we ran around on the roof of the school. boy, woud my dad have tanned me alive if he knew that i d been ruuning around on the roof.

when we moved to a new house, i rode my bike to a "haunted house" that i was told was used by drug dealers. i went inside, but was afraid of snakes, so i left.

those were the days when we could leave the house or hours; our parents did not know where we were. i was a good kid, so i pretty much stayed out of trouble.

i did some stuff that my parents would not be proud of, but i was pretty much a good kid, got deent grades, and stayed out of the principal's office. my kids are great kids. they do their school work no questions asked. they have high moral values. i trust that my kids will make good choices in their lives. they want to be successful. they work hard, even when they are tired. i do't think that my kids would ever turn to drugs/alchohol. they have lots of good friends and work hard for good grades. k17 is working hard at her job and seems to enjoy working. she is saving lots of money for a car someday. she is anexexcellent emplyoyee, i am sure. you can't say that about a lot of kids.

Home Questionnaire - pass it on

When you walk in your front door, which room do you enter?foyer, then dining room
Do you have a dishwasher?Yes.
Is your living room carpeted or does it have hardwood floors?carpeted
Do you keep your kitchen knives on the counter or in a drawer?Larger knives on counter, smaller ones in drawer.
House, apartment, duplex or trailer?House
How many bedrooms is it?Five, but three of them are extremely small. One is the guest room, another a school storage room.
Gas stove or electric?Electric stove.
Do you have a yard?yep, the lot’s about ½ acre.
What size TV is in the living room?Large screen tv that came with the house.
Are your plates in the same cupboard as your cups?no
Is there a coffee maker sitting on your kitchen counter?No, we don’t drink coffee around here. Pull it out for guests.
What room is your computer in?in my bedroom.
Are there pictures hanging in your living room?One photograph of hubby and I dancing our first dance on our wedding day.
Are there any themes found in your home?No, just color schemes.
What kind of laundry detergent do you use?Tide with bleach. Hubby is allergic to many others. Once we found out he’s not allergic to this, we stuck with it.
Do you use dryer sheets?Very seldom.
Do you have any curtains in your home?No curtains, only blinds. We use quilts for window coverings in our bedroom. Just never gotten around to it.
What color is your fridge?White.
Is your house clean?It’s either clean and cluttered or uncluttered and dirty.
What room is the most neglected?Our bedroom.
Are the dishes in your sink/dishwasher clean or dirty?Clean for the moment.
How long have you lived in your home?Four years this month. Hardly seems possible.
Where did you live before?In a double wide on ¾ acre of land, about six miles from here.
Do you have one of those fluffy toilet lid covers on your toilet?nope
Do you have a scale anywhere in your house?One scale in our bathroom I try to ignore.
How many mirrors are in your house?five
Look up. What do you see?a white ceiling with a hole where an air vent should go
Do you have a garage?yes, no cars in it. Full of yard stuff, bicycles, hubby’s tools, cans of paint.


I have been down on my back this week. It makes me feel lazy. The dr. thinks it is a pinched nerve. Trying to get some MRI's scheduled for next week. R and I are meeting with a couple once a week for Bible study. There is a lot of homework.

I only have two more times to see my OCD therapist, and then she is moving to the other side of Houston. She says I've come a long way. I can still call and do phone sessions with her, but the insurance will not pay for it.

Please continue to pray for our business, and that I will get motivated to work on the website some more. I am so burnt out. It seems that everytime I get caught up I have to go back and change what I just did. This job seems almost impossible for one person to do. School is being neglected.

Please pray for my friend R. She has been in the hospital for a week now with no mention of her coming home anytime soon.

Thanks for listening, guys.

~b~